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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
6:09 am	Perfection Its something no one ever has, no one could ever possibly reach. Sometimes you say that things are perfect, or you find a perfect moment, but in reality thats not the case. Nothing is ever perfect. But what you can find are moments that are the best they possibly could be, where everything you could think of is going right. You can't ever have everything be perfect, but what you can find, if you're lucky is the closest thing. Current Mood: content Current Music: its too early for music (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 20th, 2004
12:05 am	"I will never let you fall" The last words I heard as the current stopped flowing. I am happier than I've ever been in my life. I think the biggest difference in me right now is that when I look at who I am, not only do I like who I am, but I want to be who I am, and nothing else. And I'm off to bed, with a smile upon my face.... Current Mood: loved Current Music: Nightwish - Forever Yours (Comment on this)
Monday, April 26th, 2004
8:55 am	Its easy math... just a 1 out of 26 chance, but hey, it worked out that way.... Current Mood: giddy Current Music: no need for anything (Comment on this)
Monday, April 19th, 2004
2:55 pm	What to say? The relay for life, all in all, was tons of fun. Sure there was the COLDEST hour of my life, ever, but other than that it was awesome. I have some great pictures and everything. Bouncing in the moonbounce, walking for hours upon end, getting woken up by a donut to the face, and who could forget #1 Bacon? Exactly.... The rest of the weekend was even better. It was just an escape, but an escape to a place i'm always going to be. So many firsts, don't know if i can name them, but they invovle towers, rivers, cars, fire, cards, hairpin curves, and so much more..... I'm just going to be smiline for weeks.... ....it's too bad those green doors were locked, but not to worry, because I will find a set of doors to go through soon enough. Current Mood: hyper Current Music: Barenaked Ladies - Pinch Me (Comment on this)
Friday, April 16th, 2004
1:53 am	Walking down the hall... ...after brushing my teeth, I started thinking. I don't know what sparked it, but the result was one of those "Is this real? It can't be real" feelings. But then I stoped and thought about it. Its for real. Current Mood: cheerful (Comment on this)
1:42 am	The velcro tears apart.... ....my wallet opens, and I cna't help but smile (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
3:24 pm	*Void of subject line* Lunch today was just....wonderful. Current Mood: silly Current Music: Lost Prophets - Make A Move (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 4th, 2004
11:47 pm	And my eyes were opened.... .......so thats what I look like on the inside. I don't know what to say, this weekend has just been great. Fantastic. I feel as if I have found something that was never really missing, just tucked away. I guess rediscovered is the best word. I just filled me up in a completely different way, something I haven't felt for the longest time. Misch, i just wanted to thank you. That was deffinitly one of the nicest thigns anyone has ever said to me. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: Full Devil Jacket - Where Did You Go (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 3rd, 2004
6:50 pm	And So I Climbed..... The ground was level as I began my ascent. And so I went, up and up. It was easy at first. The begging was so close, and I was close to the earth. I could see where I started and I wasn't afraid. Yet before I knew it I was higher then I thought I was. Looking down, the thought of falling consumed me. I started to get dizzy, and almost fell. I could see myself falling back to the start. But I looked around, and I saw exactly what I needed to see. It gave me strenght, and I kept on going. Part of me wanted to stay where I was, knowing how beautiful it was right there, but another part of me wanted to continue to go higher and higher. I knew the higher I went, the more beautiful the world would become, but I also knew the higher I went, the harder I would fall. And thats when I realized not to look at the fall, but to look at what I could have. Sitting around being content with what was just there, thats not me. I had to keep going, not necessarily for myslef, but for everyone else. If I just gave up right there, thats more than a letdown to me, but a letdown to all around. So one foot after another, one step higher, I went. Before I knew it I was at the top. I could barely breath, the scenary just taking my breath away. And that's when I realized every step taken, every calorie burned, every breath inhaled, it was all worth it. Every single bit of energy I expelled was returned to me tenfold. And then I started my descent. Going down is much easier, because as you come down, you realize you have been up. What that means is the next time you climb, it'll be that much easier, becasue you've done it, and you know you can do it again. So you reach the base, get in your car with a smile on your face, and drive away, no longer fearing, but hoping to find another moutain to climb, because your eyes know what they have seen at the top. Current Mood: touched Current Music: HIM - Right Here In My Arms (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
9:45 pm	Turn around, and there it is.... You could call it an epiphany i guess, but those usually happen without warning all at once. Kind of like a "woah, i get it now" sort of thing. This is more of a gradual thing. Like watching your hair grow. You don't notice day by day that its getting longer, but one day you just look in the mirror and are like "damn, i need a haircut". Thats basically how I see it. I didn't notice it was happening, but now that i stop and think, and look back, i can see it perfectly clearly. Not only am I the happiest i've ever been, I couldn't ask for anything else. Sure, i mean, I'd like to buy this and go here, but stuff doesn't make me happy, its everything else that does. Its waking up after a perfect dream, opening your eyes and smiling to meet the day. Its the feeling you get around your friends when you know they care. Its stories before bed. Its the sound of laughter when the only word you can describe an escalter with is "electrical staircase". Its getting mail for just no reason, but even more so its keeping the letters you recive and looking back at them for no real reason at all. Its getting a care package (minus the package). Its not being able to tell your left from right, but people still know what your talking about. Most of all, its every little thing put together to from something you never thought possible. Current Mood: content Current Music: Guns N Roses - Sweet Child of Mine (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 15th, 2004
7:17 pm	For some reason I just can't get warm right now..... WARG! Why can't my work leave me alone for JUST a week??? Its spring break, and I have 3 lab reports and 2 tests the week I get back, and I'm working again this week. Oh well, guess I'm at school, minus the school, and minus all the awesome people there.... Current Mood: cold Current Music: Offspring - Staring At The Sun (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 11th, 2004
4:54 pm	A lot of pillows and couch cusions, and bam... ...you've got a fort. Everyone did that when they were little, but who still does it? I mean honestly, forts are awesome and the deffinitly need to make a comeback. Maybe replace the pillows with pizza boxes and duct tape, but the outcome is the same. Best part about forts is you go inside, forget the rest of the world, and make your own rules.... "To see you when I wake up Is a gift I didn't think could be real. To know that you feel the same as I do Is a three-fold, utopian dream. You do something to me that I can´t explain..." YAY! Spring break = tomorrow...... Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Incubus - I Miss You (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 6th, 2004
1:12 pm	Yeah I know i'm a dork.... ....but isn't this just awesome?? Baking massive amounts of cupcakes and decorating them like that was one of coolest things ever. And yes, the laminated poster sized periodic table is actually mine, and is hanging on my wall right now. Man i'm awesome. Current Mood: content Current Music: Offspring - The Kids Aren't Alright (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 1st, 2004
9:01 am	So yeah.... The average person spends 6 months at red lights. I can't wait... Also, Jane and Eric are awesome, just awesome.... Current Mood: content Current Music: Bush - Warm Machine (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 28th, 2004
6:47 pm	Inflammable means flammable? What a country! So yeah. Ether vapors are very flammable. Even if there's no fire aroud, the hot plates you're using to boil the ether off might spark and create a huge ball of flame, almost the size of your's truely, and singe a bunch of hair. Dangerous, but figgin cool........ Bruins game today was awesome. SO MUCH FUN. I must go to more, its a necessity.... Did you know Koala bears are the 2nd best thing in the world to hold? There's just so much around me to be happy about :o) Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Fenix TX - Speachless (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 23rd, 2004
7:48 pm	It's 7:48..... And I have a mohawk as we speak. Well, it's only a fohawk, but still.... So my family always told me I was born with a silver spoon up my ass. I've always been the 'lucky' kid. And, for a while that was true. For the longest time I would win every lottery ticket, find anything thats missing, that sort of thing. Then my luck sorta dissapeared, and I thought it was gone for good. I just want to say I was dead wrong. I am by far the luckiest person in the world. I don't care who believes me, becasue I know I am..... Current Mood: full of smiles Current Music: STP - Pretty Polly (acoustic) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 19th, 2004
7:25 pm	Things that make me smile.... ...getting mail. Whats even better, is getting multiple letters in the mail on way day. From the same return address. Very few things are as happy as that. On a completely different note, something today made me realize i'm missing something. Actually, i've never really had it, so i can't say that i'm missing it. Its something that i wish i had, but i don't think it will ever happen. Current Mood: loved Current Music: Fuel - Shimmer (acoustic) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 17th, 2004
4:40 pm	So yes... This is dan. Dan is a Biochem major, like me. Dan likes lots of chemistry stuff. Dan's favorite chemical is CH3-CH2-OH. Dan likes to make snow angles in the ground, even if it hurts him. Current Mood: bored Current Music: Incubus - Beware! Criminal (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 16th, 2004
7:43 pm	Best conversation ever...... That was by, with out a doubt, the best conversation i ever had. Period. Its one of those things i'm going to remember for the rest of my life. I won't remember every exact word, but I will remeber the essence of the conversation. This weekend was loads of fun. To the MAXOR! Got to see BNL, which rocked hardcore, i just wish i got MY bow signed *cries*. Paige came up to visit too which made me ultra happy because i missed her tons. I did however end up driving her all the way back to Dean. Wasn't bad though, because Jen came along for the ride. I hate driving alone sometimes, it made it so much easier. But now i have to head off for work. I have a new earing, i'm down $6 and some string, i caught some purple butterflies, and got a newfound smile on my face. And some day, everything on that list will be checked off..... Current Mood: happy Current Music: Barenaked Ladies - For You (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2004
11:33 pm	I'm at a loss for words....... What a weekend. It was practically perfect, everything about it. Cut out the part of saturday when i was at the Regge show, and you've probably got one of the best times of my life. Its not like anything overly amazing happened, but every little thing just added up real fast to my amazement. All I really need to say is that i have some great friends. What can i even say? Becasue I've got nothing, once again, my head is just a jumble of words. Cookies....candles.....fudge....falling a sleep....waking up...red lights.....piles of snow...pizza.....fantastic.....devil horns....pancakes.....frog, toad, and butterflies. Lots of butterflies. I dunno, honestly, I'm the luckiest person ever. No one would have ever gone through that much trouble before just for me. No one. And sometimes, you're just too happy to think or talk, and you can't express your full graditude. I just hope you know how happy you really made me. Current Mood: thankful Current Music: Lost Prophets - Last Train (1 Comment |Comment on this)